Here’s the abbreviated story of my life.
I’m a military kid. I’ve lived in Germany, Washington, Texas, and have come back to Kansas. I have an 11 year old sister, who lives with my parents, all of whom live in las Vegas Nevada. Last summer we all lived here (small town kansas) but I moved out two days after my 18th birthday into a 600 square foot apartment. They moved away a week later. I’m a full time college student, looking to get my elementary teachers degree. That’s not my dream though. I really want to be an author and write children’s books. I’m 28 pages (word, times new roman, 12 font) into one and it’s going alright I guess.
Since last April I’ve been working as a waitress, but that’s not really cutting it. Tomorrow is ammature night at a strip joint in wichita. You have to dance in amature night to get a job there. Not only that, but there’s a $500 cash prize and I intend to win it. I need to. Rent is due in five days.
I have a boyfriend of a year and a half, Shawn. He’s 20, tall dark and handsome. I love the boy, but I don’t have to like him. His dad is a major control freak. Like, he needs professional help and I’m not joking. He has some PTSD from war. Shawn still lives at his parents house, and can’t find a job. He’s going to college full time too. He used to have a really good job, but got laid off and he’s been hurt by that ever since. He has a tendancey to let others control him because he’s scared to make his own decisions, and he has a tendency to think only about his own emotions, not the emotions of others. He does care about the well being of others, though. He seems to think that if he devotes himself completely to his parents now and devotes himself to me later in life, it’s all good because I’ll be around longer. Dork.
I’m starting this blog because I feel so alone right now. There’s so much stigma surrounding stripping. I feel so alone. I don’t have anyone to reach out to in the real world. But I know I’ll feel better if I have someone to reach out to, even on the internet.
Hey, yea. You and I do sound similar.
I don’t think I am a good person to give advice about guys but I think you’ll be alright.
Stripping isn’t necessarily a bad thing. I don’t think it is. One of my best friend is a stripper. Of course she’s doing it because she loves it not because she needs money. Not everyone is bad in that industry but be careful who you trust.
Good luck with the job, hope it works out for you, blogging is a good way of letting off some tension. Well sometimes it is anyway. Its suprising how many people feel alone, even when you can be surrounded by other people.